Give me a chance pls..

Things been goin pretty fine lately 4 me. Assignments r almost done. Nw only left film editin 2 do. Bt sumhow, my heart is in a mess. Been doin lotsa tinkin recently. Especially 2day..

I feel tt i've nt given my best shot in all d things i shd do. My walk wit God, assignments, commitment 2 family, bein a true fren 2 my frens n ppl in my church, my ministry n commitment s well s preparation 4 church meetings.

I haven giv my best 2 God. Nt committin all my ways 2 Him in total surrender. Im bt a lukewarm Christian. feel d pain wen God said He wanna spit out those who r lukewarm..Im a hypocrite.

Speakin of hypocrite, it reminds me of my frens. Im so judgemental n i am harsh 2 my frens wen they dun meet up my expectation or do wat a fren shd do 2 me. N 4 those who care, i took them 4 granted without carin much 4 their feelings. Though d phrase frens r meant 2 b used make me cringe, sad 2 say,i do tt sumtimes.

2 all my frens, coursemates n church members : im reli sori if u r 1 of my victim of selfishness.ironically, sumtimes, i dun even notice it. im oso sori 4 i noe tt i can b a real hypocrite n hurt u in anyway. Im reli sori..4 im bad n rotten..im tryin 2 change wit God's help..n i hop u guys will give me a chance..jz 2 b a real fren 2 u..I wanna say sorry 4 all d stupid gossips tt came out frm my mouth. Tryin hard 2 stop. Help me ya.

I mz do my best 2 do well in my remainin assignments nw n 2 put my whole heart in2 it n exam oso.

Even 4 my own family, i mz learn 2 love them more n spent more time carin 4 them. S in reli care n nt jz sit there n watch tv n tink i've spent time wit them.i need 2 b more sensitive 2 their needs..

I wanna b prepared n do enough of studies n preparation 4 bible study, YA n my sundy school ministry.

I wanna b discipline in takin care of my appearance s well.


Oh God help tis sinful girl change her way.