S.E.R.E.N.I.T.Y

2 years plus in ukm has taught me so much. Changed me alot in fact. The people i met, the things i went thru, the tears n sorrow, the lessons i learnt.

And now, here i stand, on my very final semester. Another cross road, another path to take very soon. Where to go for my internship and after that, wat will i do after graduating from degree? I do have things in my mind, but, who noe wat will happen tmrw right? But many songs just keep playing in my mind as i hang on to tis uncertainty...

Like....

Many things about tmrw,
I dun seems to und,
But I noe who holds tmrw and
I noe who holds my hands.

And...

Higher hands are leading me,
I am not afraid i know,
As i walk this world below,
For higher hands are leading me.

And....

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When don't see his plan
When you can't trace his hand
Trust His Heart

He sees the master plan
He holds the future in his hand,
Don't live as those who have no hope,
While our hope is found in him.
We see the present clearly
But he sees the first and last
And like a tapestry He's weaving you and me,
To someday be just like him

He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what is best for you

The Lord's plan is indeed better and higher...
Though sumtimes i may not understand y God do certain things..
But all i noe, i can trust Him to guide me in every step of my life...
Wretched as i am...unfaithful as i am....

If we are faithless, God is faithful,
For He can't deny Himself.

Indeed, i have tasted and see that the Lord is good.

He lead me...He lead me...As a dear Shepherd who cares for His flock....

He healed my wounds and wiped away my tears....

Though sumtimes i may not see it...

Each climb to broga hill reminded me of tis. Wen i was without torchlight wen i climbed tt hill b4 sunrise,in d dark, i was reminded how often in life, i walked in darkness, yet d Lord is rite beside me thru every potholes and dangers.

Yea thru d shadow of d valley of death,
I shall not fear any harm,
Thy road and thy staff,
They comfort me, And
You will not leave me alone

Wen i bring torch light for the climb, i was reminded that sumtimes, He shone lights in my life, but only sufficient just to see the immediate next step.

And now, here i am in another phase...

Another chance to grow further in Him...

Such blessed assurance, that Lord Jesus is mine in my walk of life,
Oh wat a foretaste of glory divine...

Though i have so far to go in bein Christlike, yet...
I know the Lord will finish the good work He started to completion.

Lord, thx u because...

So far, it's been so good so far,
Thru all the joys and scars,
You won the battle in my heart.
I long for wat u have in store,
Another open door, should i stay here or look for more?

So far, You brought me,
So far, You taught me,
So far, that everythin i need You are,
N nw, another turn 2 take,
Another choice to make,
I can't believe we come so far..

U said the fight has just begun,
And yet the battle's won,
By trustin in ur Holy Son.
You know the plans You have for me,
I am tryin to believe,
But my eyes can only see so far..

Dear Father, may all those who comes behind me finds me faithful to You,
As that is the only thing i can do for you..So little to repay Your love.

I will cont 2 run d race, i will cont 2 strive 2 grow in d Lord...

I will cling to the old rugged cross....

Thx U Lord for everythin.....
And for not leavin me alone.....

F.O.C.U.S

hey ppl....haven got time 2 keep updated...jz here 2 say happy valentine 2 all of u...i love u all...tk good cr till i write a longer post~

L.O.V.E

Recently,i been reli frustrated bcos my ptptn loan is not in..facin financial prob n it is at tis time tt my laptop hav to gimme prob after 2 years plus of followin me...wit d work i gotta do,rushin lik mad bcos i use uni's computer lab tt closes at 5 pm..n stayin in d studio d whole day often time gimme a very depressed mood..

Each time i go back hostel at nite, i feel so...lonely and memang down lama-lama ok...

Then bcos of financial constraint n oso time constraint, i been out of touch wit my buddies s well s church mates...even more frust...

Feel out of place wit frens...FRUST...

N im so caught up wit my own prob, i seems to be so selfish n hardly hav time for others...Lagi Lagi Frust...

N can't b back home 2 b wit mum though i noe she's alone at home most days...LAGI FRUST...

Knowin my family n frens got prob, but can't help....DOWN DOWN DOWN...

SO

Suffice 2 say, my mood hasn't been good le..hehehe...

But...I learned so much n can't b more grateful....

*though my loan gimme prob, i hav a wonderful family tt i cn rely on...my 2nd bro,who is nt a very expressiv type of ppl, been supportin me...i feel his love though there isn't much said between us...

*tt im brought up in a not-so-rich family, it shaped me up to b a more mature person n knowin how hard money is earned...yet nv once since my young day, did i go hungry, did i go without clothes n things...bcos i hav dad n mum who will do all they cn 2 provide 4 me..

n dad jz reassured me tis mornin, "dun wori, dad will do my best ok..u jz do wat u need 2 do n leave d rest 2 me"...i...i reli can't say hw much i love my parent though they hav their flaws...they ALWIZ supported me in all i do, they ALWIZ understand....

*tt my laptop spoilt oni by now...it has been servin me faithfully for 2 yrs plus without hassle..it oni start givin probs nw on my last sem, D LEAST BUSY sem of all sems ok...

*tt bcos my laptop gav me prob, i learn 2 b more efficient in my work, i learnt 2 cut down unnnecessary online time, i learnt hw 2 reformat my laptop myself, i learnt hw 2 detect probs of laptop.

*tt i noe miss peiling n suguna offered me their laptop...d kindness...gosh...

*tt wen im lonely, it is then i feel God teachin me so much 2 rely on Him n remindin me tt im here 2 serve n not 2 b served...

*tt wen im lonely n feel out of place, God make me stronger...

*tt though im selfish, though im so weak, though im so wretched,God stil dun giv up on me, n tryin mold me 2 b more lik Christ...God, wat am i tt u r so mindful of me?

*tt i noe miss suguna cn turn my emo time 2 d most hilarious statement...LOL

So u c..things r nt so bad after all~~Good monday~~

Count ur blessings,
Name them one by one,
Count ur blessings,
C wat God has done,
Count ur blessings,
Name them one by one,
N it wil suprised u wat d Lord had done...